Throughout my life I’ve often found myself so focused on how people perceive me that I’ve habitually projected an image of myself that, at times, I don’t even identify with. This work is an exploration into the identity crisis one goes through when they are taught all their lives how they are to perform. This series of images was taken at a time when I was alone in a private space and feeling completely vulnerable about my image versus my self.
I was initially inspired by the work of Frida Kahlo, particularly Self-Portrait with Thorn Necklace and Hummingbird. I find this portrait of the self to be a confronting piece, whereby Kahlo deliberately faces the viewer with raw vulnerability (Helland 1992). I then looked to Vera Molnar’s work 25 Carres, where the arrangement and repetition of the same image work to create an aesthetic piece, whilst also giving the initial image a new meaning (Deleflie 2015, Molnar 1975). Through the repetition of my image, I was able to create a piece that captures this crisis of the self vs the image.
With my initial prototypes I played with different ways of repeating and assembling my ‘self’ image. My final piece is the result of the repetitions and arrangements that I felt were able to represent a crisis of the self as well as being strong as an aesthetic piece.
Evolution of project below:
Deleflie, E 2015, Lecture05: Algorithm and Computation, lecture, MEDA102 Computational Media, University of Wollongong, delivered 27 August.
Helland, J 1992, Culture, politics, and identity in the paintings of Frida Kahlo,The expanding discourse: Feminism and art history, 397-408, accessed 25/10/15, available at: https://www.msu.edu/course/ha/240/fridakahlo.pdf
Molnar, V 1975, Toward Aesthetic Guidelines for Paintings with the Aid of a Computer. Leonardo, 8(3), 185–189, accessed 25/10/15, available at: http://www.jstor.org.ezproxy.uow.edu.au/stable/1573236?seq=1#page_scan_tab_contents